As you can see, may mga bagong linkie, namely mga Lyrics translation pages (yung kay Mina-P the best pagdating sa mga lyrics ni Gackt. As in!) tsake Laruku.com. Tsaka naayos ko na rin yung image nung Kadsuki fanlisting ko. Heehee! Yay.

Para kay Charleen:



Heehee! Cute ni Puss in Boots! Kelangan kong manuod ng Shrek 2!!!

Ayun nga, may pasok na kami. Hell nanaman bukas kasi sobrang boring ng Stat, Rels2 at Filipino...*blegh* Ay InnerSci pala kami pero expected ko na boring na rin yun. Eeeeew talaga. I think I'm going to hate this term. Oo kahit na kaklase ko si J-Pop Boy...buong Pilipinas ay nagtatanong: BADING BA SIYA????

leaving skool skycatcher at 5:49 PM [comment]

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So it comes to this. My God, may pasok nanaman bukas. Bitin pa rin akoooooooo!!!

So what have I been up to all summer? Well malamang, I was spending most of my time over at my LJ doing stuff for my Starlights obsession. And I've been pretty much recluse from the world and a lot of people. Sowee po sa mga taong nadisappoint ko kasi hindi ako pumupunta sa mga labas, labas. Minsan lang talaga inaabot ako ng katamaran at talagang wala lang talaga akong balak sumipot. I don't know, ilang lang talaga ko sa tao ngayong mga araw na to. Sabi ni Elaine adeek na daw kasi ako sa Net. Baka nga. Pero feel ko meron lang talaga akong ibang mga rason din na hindi ko masabi.

Er ano pa ba?

The post before this written during election day. Hehe, sorry sa mga medyo naworry ko o nafreak out lang talaga. I just felt extremely down that day when I was able to mull out some thoughts. I just had to let it out somehow and I didn't want the people around here to know that something was wrong with me. Hehe, looking back at the post, it doesn't surprize me anymore that I can write angst very well. Then again, sadness and angst is pretty easy to write. You just get depressed and there you go. Happiness is more difficult to write about because it's a totally different, and overwhelming feeling.

Hehe, salamat nga pala kina Elaine, Elise, at Denise dahil sa pagpunta sa Intramuros at pagkumbinse sa'kin na sumama. Nagenjoy ako. Let's do it again sometime. Well, hindi naman kailangan sa Intamuros ulit. Basta, para lang makapagbonding ulit. ^^

Congrats kina Charleen at Cy. Buti na lang nakaget through kayo sa IntPhil ni Gojocco. You did it! ^^

What else, what else...

Uh...yun. AAaAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!! Ayoko pang pumasok!!!!!!!

POTA!!!!!

leaving skool skycatcher at 7:16 AM [comment]

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I write because I am alive and when I am not it almost seems as if I’m dead and useless. Writing is my means of expression and it is my thoughts and my feelings. I can never be articulate enough when I want to speak. I don’t want to shatter what illusion I have built around myself so that things will turn out bad. I didn’t want to destroy your illusion of happiness and security. I want to remain always smiling and accepting. I want to be around and just laugh, to show you that everything’s all right with the world and with me. I never wanted to hurt or cause you trouble.

And I believe in the process I have killed myself.

Now my chest is heaving and heavy. I could feel the tears coming but I wish to God that they won’t fall because then the illusion would be shattered. I am around people now. No need for them to see how broken I am. I don’t want them to say anything. I don’t want them to see beyond the mask of the simple and unassuming person that I have “become” because they have found comfort in that and I didn’t want to worry them.

I’ll be all right. I’ll be happy. I’ll be fine.

You don’t have to worry about me.

I don’t really know why I’m like this, why I want to protect you and probably protect myself as well from the me that I don’t want to share. I don’t want to show you my weaknesses and my true self. Not because you’d hate me for it, for I don’t really believe that it would be possible just because I break down in front of you and cry and cry and cry. No, I suppose because I don’t want my feelings acknowledged, my anger and bitterness revealed. Pride is such a bitch and where I am now in torment, but as I always say I will live through this. Though of course I never say whether unscathed or not.

I’m “happy” where I am. I’m happy that you’re happy and that’s the truth. And I don’t want my sadness to be your sadness as well. I don’t want to make you feel as if you’ve been bad and I didn’t want to accuse you of such things because I am never sure if the fault really lies on you or it is all my own.

Since when have I been so isolated? Since when have I never wanted to be touched, to always want to be numbed of pain and grief? Since when have I been so sickeningly martyr-like?

I hate myself and I can’t really hate you.

I write because I am alive. I write because I want to tell you a story. Now I don’t know why I write when I don’t really tell you anything.

I guess I’m just dead and the dead never tell their tales.


leaving skool skycatcher at 3:31 PM [comment]

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Oh my God...andito nanaman ako at nagpopost? Bakeeet? Dahil ba may nangyaring significant sa buhay ko na maaaring maging sanhi ng pag-gunaw ng mundo? Ito ba'y dahil lahat tayo'y mamamatay na nga't mawawala na ang mga Taong Troika sa balat ng lupa???? *katok sa kahoy*

HINDEEEE!! Ito ay dahil.......

NAGPOST ULIT NG MAHABANG ENTRY SI BOM!!!!!!!

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Wahahahahahahahahahaha!!!! Kung si Elaine ang nagkukumpleto sakin' (Elaine! You complete me talaga! XD Charleen, hanap ka ng sarili mong tagline! Akin lang yan!) si Bom ang aking INSPIRATION!!!!

At titigil na 'ko bago pa ko maubusan ng kaibigan. Baka kung ano pa masabi ko, layuan na ko ng malupet ng mga tao dito. At maiwan na lang sa'kin si Vincent na convinced na lalaki daw ako at sobrang bonding daw kami na ilalabas daw niya ko isang araw at maghahanap daw kami ng mga babae. Gago talaga yun...

Anyway, wala lang talaga kong purpose ngayon. Natuwa lang ako sa entry ni Bom. Kaya nagpost din ako. ^^ Wala naman kasing nangyayari sa'kin dito sa bahay e. Computer at Internet lang buhay ko dito. Ay oo nga, pati Get Backers na salamat sa Diyos ay pinatuloy na nila. Thank you po. Maganda ang Get Backers. Manuod kayo. Hehehehehe....Kaya nga minsan iniisip ko kung paano ba? Ganito na lang ba ang takbo ng buhay ko? Ito na lang ba talaga ang mga oras kung saan nararamdaman kong buhay ako?

Sobrang inaisolate ko ang sarili ko. Sobra, talaga. Wala akong tinatawagan. Hindi ko masyado kinakausap ang kapatid ko (na kung sa bagay, nakakabaliw ding kausapin kasi kung hindi ako iniinsulto inaasar naman ako).

Talagang napapaisip na lang talaga ko minsan.

Is it that despite my seemingly social personality, I'm actually a loner under all the layers of a superficial facade?

O baka naman kulang lang talaga ko sa tulog, sobrang exposure sa radiation na galing sa computer, o talagang nangangati lang talaga ko panoorin ulit ng buo ang Fruits Basket at Fushigi Yuugi. Pwede rin kasi meron ako ngayon. Napakaemotional ko pag mga araw na meron ako. Pakiramdam ko lahat mali na sakin. Lahat na ng bagay masama at hindi ako talaga tao....ganun baga.

Bakit ba ang mga kababaihan ay kailangan pang mabuhay na pasan-pasan ang malaking problemang ito?

Grabe, dramatic na ko. Hehehehe, yan ang napapala ng nanunod ng "Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen" kahapon at natuwa.

leaving skool skycatcher at 9:57 AM [comment]

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Tagal ko nang di nagblogging e no? Hehehehe, sorry po. Kasi medyo nga natutuwa ako sa livejournal ko e. Dami ko kasing mga ideas for my fanfics. I'm writing up a storm. Yeah!! This is how it feels to be free!!!!

Oo nga pala, may nahanap akong magandang piccy. I just want to share it with you. From L'arc's latest album, "Smile" (if I'm not mistaken with the name of the album) here is a piccie from their "Ready, Steady, Go!" video



Cute ano???? Hehehehehehe!!!!!

Byeeee! La ako masabi ngayon e. ^_^

leaving skool skycatcher at 7:55 PM [comment]

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